Saturday, January 16, 2016


Wow I kinda just remembered I have a blog.
It was funny to reread the old things I've written, and even funnier that I wrote them while trying to not study for midterms and here I am doing the same thing again.
But now I can't think of anything to say, and it just seems like sometimes you run out of words, you know? You run out of road.
But that's okay. You don't always need to have something to say. You don't always need a lot of idle chatter, or chatter at all, to fill up the time and space. I think we antagonize silence a lot, and that's bad because when we are silent it means we are reflecting on ourselves, and everyone could do more of that.
Scientifically, when you block out some of your senses, the others get stronger. What if we all stopped talking so much for a little while? What if you went out and walked around and just listened? How much more would you hear, how many worlds would you stumble upon that had so long gone unnoticed? I love walking in the city as a quiet observer because every walk, every face tells a story. And that's enough.
We don't always need words.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Nice Face

Life has caught up with me and I haven't posted here in a long time. But I got an email and a really nice comment and I want to get back on this. Spewing my brain all over the internet is really fun, even if no one's listening.
I try to give compliments. When I recognize that someone has worked really hard on their outfit or hair, I tell them it's cute. Genuine compliments just make everyone's day so much better. 
But I'm not the best at being social. Striking up a conversation without being superficial and awkward is a task for me. And I don't think I'm the only one. So this goes out to everyone is unsatisfied with their social situation. People who don't have a lot of friends or are mistreated by their friends or just feel lonely and unwanted.
You aren't unwanted. You are always loved. You are cool beyond belief. And if no one's telling you that, take my word for now. Someone will soon. I strongly believe that life is always cycling around on us, in every aspect. Including socially. You may feel alone now, but at some point you will be surrounded by loved ones who love you and you will look back on now and realize how much better it' s gotten. 
At the same time, you may be able to help yourself by taking risks. Say hi. Walk home with someone new. Be the one to invite them over, even if you're not sure how things will work out. I've done it and it's led to amazing friendships. Put yourself out there. A conversation with you might mean so much more to someone than you realize.
We all have the capacity to make other people's lives better, and when we do that we're making ourselves better. If you're down, look up. If you're up, reach down. If you have lost hope in yourself, remember every step takes you further from where you are and closer to where you're going to be.

And YOU get to decide where you're going to be. Isn't that amazing??

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Keep on Keepin' On

Hi guys!

I'm still pretty sure there's nobody here, but that's okay. I actually kind of like the idea that my thoughts are floating around out there for somebody to happen upon. It's cool.

I don't have anything figured out, and I think most teens could relate to that. But more and more I feel like we're all being pressured to find a mold and fit ourselves to it. Whether we have tons of friends or always wear pretty outfits or like anime or get good grades, we have to stick to acting like "that type" of high school kid. And sometimes maybe it seems like that's the easiest way to be, and everybody's doing it and it's working out for them. But I don't think so anymore.

I think we all have this struggle going on. Even the people who look like they have it together are wondering, changing and trying  to find peace between themselves and who everyone wants them to be. It might sound cheesy, because we've heard it thousands of times and not once taken it to heart. But things are going to get better, and you only need to keep on going and trust that it will pan out.

I've been needing this reminder a lot lately, so maybe this is more for myself then anyone else. But we're all fighting incessant battles in our heads, and if we acknowledged that it would probably make everyone's day a little easier. So this is for all of us. We can make it. It will take tears and laughter and sunlight and so, so much time, but we WILL make it.

Bonne nuit, Wall!

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Brain Twister

Wow so it turns out I am not entirely talking to the wall over here... cool!

This is only post two, but I can already feel a trend developing - hypothetical, emotional, metaphysical, and otherwise weird topics that I ponder lot but don't discuss very much. I like to think about concepts like these because it broadens our perspectives a bit, and creeps us out. And I've got a pretty basic one stuck in my head right now.

Infinity. Specifically, in terms of the universe. Outer space continuing forever is something I just can't wrap my head around. Seriously, have you thought about it? It's kind of corny, but exactly how long is forever? Imagine stretches of nebulas and solar systems and stars just going and going. What's outside of them? How can there not be a physical limit to space? When I picture the universe, there always has to be some kind of ending, some sort of box enclosing it. Because of that, I used to have this image as a little kid of our planets and galaxies existing in a little snow globe sitting on the mantlepiece in the house of some giants in a bigger world. But their world was only a snow globe too, in some larger place, and so on and so on. I guess this is starting to turn into a religious thing as well, so I'll stop before I get off topic.

Bonne nuit!
Goodnight, wall!

Saturday, January 10, 2015

How to start a blog... sort of



How has your day been? Your week, month, year?

Seeing as my year started ten days ago, that's a bit hard to determine. But to satisfy you, pretty well.

Satisfaction. Now that's something you cannot glean from one careless response, can you? In one bland, perfunctory conversation?

Not in my experience. But I would have you know that what you may see as a pointless chat can lead to marvels.

A pointless chat on what seems to be a pointless blog. But don't worry, we may be able to brighten things up here yet. 

Yes indeed. Have you tried striking up a conversation with someone lately? Someone you don't know, or want to know, or someone who has a really cool shirt on?  Maybe that's what I'm doing here. Isn't that how we all seem to start friendships?

Isn't it?